Thinking about the future is scary. I’m at the stage of school where I’m starting to make my first subject choices, and I’m constantly being asked ‘what I want to be’ when I’m older. The truth is, I really don’t know what I want to be in terms of a job, which is obviously what people mean when asking this question, but I do know what I want to be in general; happy and healthy, and…just me. I want to be myself when I’m older. The problem is finding a job that allows me to be happy and healthy and to be myself.
You’re probably confused, and wondering what I’m on about, because, yes, I know, this doesn’t really make much sense, and I’m not sure I’m able to make it make more sense, as this is just an extremely disorienting subject. I’m not the only one who doesn’t know what I want to do when I’m older, so if you’re in the same position as me, this blog post is for you. To show you that you’re not alone. Fortunately, I’m not at the stage of exams yet, so I don’t have to stress out quite so much. However, there is still a great deal of pressure put on people in my year to know what job they want to do.
I have found that it is so so difficult to find a realistic career path where you can enjoy and live life to the fullest, while still making enough money for a living while still feeling like the job really is for you. I feel like a lot of people my age think they are certain of what job to do, but really they have just been convinced by teachers or parents, and when they come to actually doing the job they have worked their whole life for, they may feel like they are like a square peg in a round hole, they feel like they aren’t themselves anymore.
These are all the reasons why thinking about the future scares me, I wish I could just live in the moment, but no. We spend our lives preparing for the next stage of life, that’s just the way the world works. It seems pretty messed up to me. Nursery prepares for primary school, primary school prepares for high school, high school prepares for university, university prepares for work, and work prepares for retirement.
Let me know your opinion on the future, and preparing for work and choosing the perfect job for you. Thanks for reading my confusing thoughts and opinions on this topic & I apologise that I can’t come to a real conclusion, I really do wish I could, but I am still genuinely figuring all of this out for myself.
Love, Abbie xx